11:32 am. Woke up unsure of the status of my relationship with K. or even of what the proper sexual protocol now was. I said to K: “I don’t know how to be with you anymore. Are you my girlfriend or his?” She said: “I’m your girlfriend.” I questioned the over-simplification of her answer. We talked about it and eventually ended up having sex.
Afterwards, I said, “What do you want to do about our relationship?” She said, “I don’t know.” I said: “We have three options. 1) Keep seeing each other as we have been, 2) Keep seeing each other but also see other people, and 3) stop seeing each other and only see other people.” She shook her head “no” to the third option, which left 1 and 2. When I asked her which she preferred, she said she didn’t know, adding: “What if in a few days, this passes, and I stop having feelings for him?” I said, okay, she could take however much time she needs as long as she understands that her uncertainty is taking a toll on the relationship and that the longer it continues, the bigger the toll.